they say girls talk through songs right?

Breakeven - The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
One still in love while the other one's leaving
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no 

* the 6th line is not true. but i just hear this song like it fits me. just that.

* hear this --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzCLLHscMOw&ob=av2e

farhan, aiman and haikal

oh tadi i've done my nephew's homework. aiman pnye. hehe
and i was like....ha? did i just help or i've completely did his work?
the answer is yeah, i completely did his work.
haha. no, i just can't stand seeing him coloured that piece of paper bluntly.
biasa la lelaki. haih. boleh tak kaler elok2?
and i was like addicted to colourings sbb dh lama x main2 kaler nih.
hehe. sampai aiman ckp "su jgn la kaler lawa sgt. nnt cikgu tanya lah".
haha. aku jwb " sukeati aiman la.
haa, aiman ckp la malam ni aiman rasa rajin nk kaler lawa2. so, kaler la lawa2."
boleh plak aku aja dia menipu kan?
tp x pela, at least dia punye homework lawa la sikit dari yg asal.
bkn nk ckp aku kaler lawa la. tp x de la sume kaler oren kan?=_="
xde ke anak2 buah aku uh ikot atok dia aa yg suke drawing?
hmm pape pon diorg still comel semua. hihi

aiman ni mulut manis tau tak.
kngkadang rasa nk lempang pn ade. wops. xde la,
aku x pnah lempang anak buah aku. hee.
comel la mak sdara diorg ni kn. baik je. ;)

aku rasa ni 1st time aku cerita pasal anak2 abg sulong aku.
diorg ni 3 adik-beradik. incoming nk masok 4 la. hee
yg 1st ni minat chelsea. ehemmmm! satu geng ngn aku yg pasti.
nama dia farhan. dajah 5. sangat baik. good boy. x nakal langsung.
fuhh, kira abg long yg sgt boleh dicontohi ah yg pasti.

2nd, aiman. dajah 2. haa, yg ni loyar buruk.
keje nk nyanyi dlm toilet sampai denga kt ruang tamu. gigi mcm dinasour. ngeh3.
cita2 dia nk masok bintang kecil. haha. harapan jelaaa~
suara dia matured gila kalo korg denga dlm fon konfem igt bdk tingkatan 4. HAHA
aku pn pelik x kn la dia dh mimpi kot? HAHA. ok tatau tatau.
tp antara 3 org ni, aiman la paling manja2 ngn org. heee. comel la diorg ni.
2 org ni suke gegile tahap gile aku tatau nk ckp ape...main bola.
haih, idop ngn bola je.

yg ke3 plak haikal, 5 taon.
dia sorg je chubby. nasi x makan. tp cheesedales tuh pehh suke sgt makan.
patot la chubby!
cita2 dia nk jd driver lori.
ok i believe he'll change that after he grows a few more years. haha
x kn la cita2 nk jd tu kot?
sbb dia ni gila lori, bas and bulldozer.
haih. pelik btol lelaki ni kan.

mmg aku x bape rapat dh sgt ngn diorg sbb diorg dh besa,
time kecik lu aku la gk yg jaga diorg, bawak jenjalan. hee
even aku tegas ngn diorg..
(kalo pinjam laptop aku ckp nk balik pukul 11, pukul 11 sharp aku nk diorg off laptop dh)
tegas kan kan? pehh. garang jugak aku ni. haha
tp aku syg sgt ngn diorg ni snanye.
aku tegas ngn diorg camtu, diorg nk jugak borak ngn aku, gurau ngn aku.
kadang2 rasa nk gelak tp tahan. konon garang ah kan. HAHA
diorg nak air aku g buatkan. muka stay ketat tp aku buat je air kt diorg. kehkeh.
aku pn pelik nape aku muke ketat je ngn diorg. heish apela sheeqa ni.
cuba la berlembut sikit ngn diorg.
tp xpe, dlm hati aku syg diorg snanye. :)

aku rasa antara 3 org ni, aiman la paling cool.
sbb dia cool ah! suka nyanyi, pastu perangai dia gegila sket.
kalo farhan, dia nerd sket. biasa la budak baik!
always taken care of his adiks.
haikal lak manja. btw, aku x suke panggil bebudak as "adik" aku pn x tau kenapa.
sume org pggil dia adik. tp aku pggil dia haikal.
tp aku suke gak kengkadang dia manja. 

even diorg sume ni NAKAAAALLLLL sangat!...

aku tetap tersenyum sensorg kalo tgk gamba diorg main sesama.

teringat karenah sensorang sume. hehe

skang ni aku dh nk masuk 7 org anak buah.
aku doa2 selalu sume family aku bahagia dunia akhirat.
sabar tempuh segala dugaan idop rumahtangga.
xpe, Allah x bg ujian kt org yg x mampu tanggung ujianNya kan?

hugs and kisses dari jauh for all of you :)

the story of a girl, Chiko and Chiki :)

once upon a time ago, there's a cute little girl who loved cats so so much!

she had an older sister and her sister also loved cats!

actually, their whole family was a cat lover. :)

one day, there's a cat came to their house.

just a stray cat, but a cute, lovely one. 

the cat was a female with spotted white-black-orange fur.

it's a mix colour and the girl named it as "Tutti".

her brother mocked her as the name given was like "minyak tuti yg moto pakai tu".haha

but okay, forget it. the truth was, the cat was really named as Tutti.

one day, the cat got pregnant!

and the girl was so so happy like hell.

okay no cursing here. it's a "U" story. not 18 SG. eheh

because she always love a fat cat with a big tummy.  true story. wink!

then, few months after that, Tutti delivered two cute little fluffy kittens.

one male and the other one was female.

both were white-orange coloured.

(i guess their father was whole orange coloured huh? haha)

and yeah, no doubt that both were very very cute!

the girl decided to pick one to be hers and so was her sister.

so, they got a kitten each. and they took care of theirs well. :)

the girl gave a name to her kitty as "Chiko".

the other kitty was "Chiki" (i thought. i forgot already.)

few months after that,  both of the kitties grew up and became a tough and beautiful cats!

Chiko was very very manly and fat also.

but, Chiki was thin! haha

and..... Tutti died after that. (i really don't remember what's the cause also).

however, the girl's family was about to move to a new home.

fortunately, they brought along the two cats.

at the new home, Chiko became fatter and fatter. and LAZIER also.

every member in their family loved Chiko.

but nobody gave attentions to Chiki. haha

the girl's sister was being jealous as Chiki was not as fluffy as Chiko.

Chiko was always the most cuddly one. :)

one day, Chiko got out for a walk.

and never got back.

the girl was so anxious and tried to search for him but failed.

she didn't found him. :(

a day after, her grandfather told her that Chiko was hit by a car.

he found it while crossing the road.

the girl was so upset and she cried and cried.

she never thought that she would lost her favourite cat ever. 

late Chiko was buried near the house.

every week she visited Chiko without getting tired.

until, she grew up, went for studies and forgot where exactly Chiko was buried.

and people say : Time will heal.

and yes also for this story.

what about Chiki?

ohh, Chiki lost after that, and her sister also failed to find her cat.

that was the last time they pet cats.

may Chiko rest in peace.

and also for all the cats they've pet before.

even though they've no cats at home, they still love cats indeed.

and for your information, this is a real true story.

and the girl is ME actually. hehe.

oh Chiko, i miss you so so much. :'(

days feel like years

actually i really hope that time will past fastly.

we know that "time flies" like we always said.

but for me here is like years.

yeah,, days feel like years.

waiting for my semester break to end without doing anything...

either than facing twitter and Facebook every minutes every times everyday.

i mean, 24-7. haha

my only choice is social networking or watching movies on laptop. that's all.

i don't have any feeling on going out either.

i do save a little amount of money before this just in case,
to go out with the one i wanted.

but, because of certain problems, i think the money is useless now.

so, i just pray that this semester break will end faster.

hmm. waiting is painful right?

really painful if we aren't sure of when do we have to stop.

don't know of what exactly are we waiting, the destination.

even we know what're the purposes.

somehow, it gives people hopes.

hopes that the heart won't break, the wishes all come true.

the prayers are all being answered by The Almighty.

yeah the desire of the needs.

and patience is the core of waiting.

it's a combination of patience, desire and hopes.

and that's why people do wait 

for something they always wanted the most, or loved.

with patience and never giving up the hopes.

and now i'm hoping on something, 

i hope Allah heard my voices, my tears.

and will give me what's the best.

i know this is a test for me.

and i know Allah don't give a test to whom He didn't trust in.

and i know He believes that i can go through this.

but i'm still asking for a lot of strength from Him.

because i know, i can't go through this without His will.

i hope this will end sooner, and i can smile again...freely.

and never being a fake happy one again.